You would think that I'd be used to shipping my husband off for days or weeks at a time. Truth is, in a weird way, I am. Don't take that the wrong way. I hate it! But, I spend the days and weeks before preparing myself (heart and mind) for what I'll have to face alone. By the time the day comes, I'm ready for it. Greg's been gone for the last week to a supervisor's class at The North Carolina Justice Academy in Salemburg, NC. For some reason, this week was harder on Hannah than any we've faced yet. She's cried a lot. Cried for her daddy, cried herself to sleep, and cried even when she didn't know why she was crying. That's hard for a mommy. To top it all off, we just teased her with her daddy last night :/
Greg got home from Salemburg about 9:30 last night (after her normal bedtime, but I made an allowance). It was great to have him home, but he was set to leave for another 4 days with the NCARNG at 5:30am this morning. That gave us 8 hours!! Just 8 hours to make up for a lost week, to mend little broken hearts, and to prepare those same hearts for a long weekend without daddy. I didn't know how it would happen, or what we would do to try to make the best of the time we had, while still making sure that we slept :/ We did the only thing we knew how to do. We threw our PJs on, all crawled in Hannah's bed along with yellow blankie, a happy napper, and 2 pillow pets, said our prayers, and fell asleep in eachothers arms. That's how you make the best of 8 hours, when thats all you have!!
So, Greg's off on another "adventure" again, and Hannah and I are left at home. Unfortunately I work 6 out of the next 7 nights starting tonight! :/ I told my charge nurse that she must have misunderstood me when I said I was willing to work "OVERtime". I think she thought I said I would work "ALL THE TIME"! Big difference! By the time my next set of days off rolls around, I'll be exhausted. Too bad! Thats a big weekend! WinterJam on Saturday and The Super Bowl on Sunday (Go Patriots!!). I guess I'll sleep when I'm dead!
My heart just breaks for sweet little Hannah and for what she's about to face, and for you too. I admire Greg for what he is doing for our country, but I could not ever fill your shoes and be left to do it all at home alone for a year. My prayers are with you guys and I promise you that I will be here with you through it all. I promise you lots of good times & lots of laughs, and I promise to be here when you need a friend to talk to or when you are feeling sad & lonely. You girls are going to make it through this year and I will be right there with ya, like it or not!! Love you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm holding you too that!! Love you too!
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